Source: Red Bulletin - posted Dec. 12, 2015

 

"Embrace the Fear"

Flick through teen and gossip magazines from 2008 and thereís one face on the cover of practically every one Ė Robert Pattinson. Seven years later, the former teen idol is trying to carve himself a place alongside Hollywoodís most respected actors through films such as Life

Interview by Ruediger Sturm

 

For a time, it seemed as if all people wanted to read about was Robert Pattinson and his private life. How did that make you feel?

Itís weird. I made this massive thing about never talking about anything personal in public. And it made absolutely no difference. People just made stuff up. When youíre part of someone elseís narrative, then thereís really nothing you can do about it. I tried to avoid being photographed for a while because I thought that would make it impossible to write a story. But they just used old photographs.

How is it now? Are you able to live a normal life?

Itís a lot easier now than it used to be. I hardly get noticed in London anymore, for example. Even LA is better. It used to be crazy there, but now itís fine. Iíve decided that Iím not going to hide behind a hat or a disguise anymore. It can really take a toll on you mentally if all you think about when you wake up is: ďHow well will this outfit prevent me from being recognised?Ē It can drive you crazy. But Iíve realised that I just need to deal with it.

Whatís one piece of advice you can give, based on your experiences?

Donít Google yourself. Itís the worst thing ever. It only makes you even more scared. I remember being so frightened for years, thinking that people were constantly looking at me and judging me.

Did you actually do that?

Of course, just like everyone else. Itís the worst addiction ever. If you know that people are talking about you in the other room, then youíre going put a glass to the wall and try to find out what theyíre saying. Itís a strange world we actors live in, you spend a lot of time on your own in hotel rooms and the temptation becomes even greater. I have to remind myself every day who I am and how I really want to live. I donít want to be stuck indoors, living like a hermit.

What helps?

Family. A lot of actors bring their families to work with them, but that wouldnít work for me. My family and friends have jobs, and I would effectively have to make them work for me to be able to have them around. Thatís a guaranteed way to ruin a friendship!

If you could talk to your younger self, whatís most important piece of advice youíd give?

I donít even know myself, really. Itís weird. Normally a person would tell their younger self to ďdo this, or donít do that, and donít worry so much about thisĒ. But that doesnít work. There are always new problems that will arise. I think I would just tell myself to embrace the fear. You need that fear.

But you said that you donít deal with fear very well?

I would much prefer to be someone who has to deal with a lot of fear than be a delusional person who doesnít. I like to be able to overcome things, no matter how small they are.

 

Thanks to Pattinson Worldwide !